get it gurllll

So in the midst of finishing up the semester at school, and getting acquainted with my new job at work I have been successfully completing my workout regimen. I found out today that I can get a ridiculously cheap gym membership at the YMCA downtown for 20 bucks a month. I was going to 24 hour fitness for a while,but it gets way too busy and the Y is closer to home. Plus, they are building this brand new+insanely nice one downtown a few blocks away that my new membership will transfer to once it is opened. So far I've lost 10 lbs. since starting this workout plan a few weeks ago and it feels good.

I've been singing a lot more/practicing techniques to try and get back in the swing of things,but I just haven't been very inspired to sing in public recently. I am hoping to make a comeback to singing regularly with the Sideshow Tramps sometime in late June or July but only time will tell. I can however, guarantee that I will be killing their mic at their cd release show later on this year.

I never realized how many things could change in a year until I broke my ankle. Since last July,my life has gone in a completely different direction as far as goals andsocial relationships.I can honestly say though that even though I'm not on stage as much as I used to be I'm still being productive and I'm extremely proud of where I am right now. Right now my main focus is graduating,excelling at my new job,and getting my old body back.

Hello sweet Friday.
I love you.

Bye bye muffin top

So I went to the doctor on Monday and received some really scary news. If I don't lose at least 50 lbs. within the next year,I will be dangerously close to getting diabetes. When you look at me, you would never think I weigh as much as I do. I stood on the scale at the doctor's office and was informed that I weigh 215 lbs. I haven't been this big since my junior year of highschool.Back then it seemed easy to lose the weight. I was walking 5 miles a day and I was in a musical theatre class where we would dance and move constantly. I've been doing moderate excersise since November here and there on and off,but the freeze of December thwarted my efforts and kept me inside under blankets instead of outside doing my normal routine.

The first thing the doctor told me was that I needed to seriously cut down my drinking,and if I had to drink, I needed to try and stick to wine.Before, my weight loss goals were always for the wrong reasons:

-An attempt to get guys to notice me
-A way to sell more tickets to my show by having a more attractive self image
-A way to get a former ex flame to fall back in love with me(I lost 30lbs. for him!)
-To fit into a prom dress that wasn't from Torrid

All these reasons, and not one was ever just because I wanted to be healthy and feel healthy.Well, I refuse to allow myself to slowly die because I have a lack of self control. I can no longer use my ankle injury as an excuse. There are many alternatives to the half ass excersises I have been doing.

My boyfriend Eric offered to start walking with me in the mornings to get me started on making morning excersise a habit.I thought he was full of shit because he had a few beers in him,but he was up with me this morning at 6am walking up around midtown.This morning I learned that sunrises aren't as pretty when you have drops of sweat dripping into your eyes.

My goal is to lose the 50lbs. within the next year. I'm giving myself a realistic goal of aiming to lose 1-2lbs. a week. If I lose more,that's fantastic,but I want these changes I'm making to turn into a lifestyle,not just another quick weight loss plan :/.

Wish me luck.