Bye bye muffin top

So I went to the doctor on Monday and received some really scary news. If I don't lose at least 50 lbs. within the next year,I will be dangerously close to getting diabetes. When you look at me, you would never think I weigh as much as I do. I stood on the scale at the doctor's office and was informed that I weigh 215 lbs. I haven't been this big since my junior year of highschool.Back then it seemed easy to lose the weight. I was walking 5 miles a day and I was in a musical theatre class where we would dance and move constantly. I've been doing moderate excersise since November here and there on and off,but the freeze of December thwarted my efforts and kept me inside under blankets instead of outside doing my normal routine.

The first thing the doctor told me was that I needed to seriously cut down my drinking,and if I had to drink, I needed to try and stick to wine.Before, my weight loss goals were always for the wrong reasons:

-An attempt to get guys to notice me
-A way to sell more tickets to my show by having a more attractive self image
-A way to get a former ex flame to fall back in love with me(I lost 30lbs. for him!)
-To fit into a prom dress that wasn't from Torrid

All these reasons, and not one was ever just because I wanted to be healthy and feel healthy.Well, I refuse to allow myself to slowly die because I have a lack of self control. I can no longer use my ankle injury as an excuse. There are many alternatives to the half ass excersises I have been doing.

My boyfriend Eric offered to start walking with me in the mornings to get me started on making morning excersise a habit.I thought he was full of shit because he had a few beers in him,but he was up with me this morning at 6am walking up around midtown.This morning I learned that sunrises aren't as pretty when you have drops of sweat dripping into your eyes.

My goal is to lose the 50lbs. within the next year. I'm giving myself a realistic goal of aiming to lose 1-2lbs. a week. If I lose more,that's fantastic,but I want these changes I'm making to turn into a lifestyle,not just another quick weight loss plan :/.

Wish me luck.